For forty days i gave up fear.
I gave up fear for lent in 2014. I wanted to do something that was more life-changing than giving up chocolate or alcohol. So I decided to give up fear. The kind of fear that makes you run from overwhelming situations or those outside of my comfort zone. I gave up the kind of fear that freezes you in a moment from responding and engaging.
I ventured into relationships i would have run from. I found my courage, my limits and my dignity. I literally paddled out into deep cold water on lake whiskey town that would have had me freaking out or paddling around the edges.
I’ve thrown myself into adventures i might never have dared to take alone and rediscovered my adventurous self. I’ve opened my heart to strangers and found community and connection i couldn’t have foreseen.
Everytime i felt fear rise up i chose to let it go and face the situation with openness. I strode out into the midst of the very thing i had been afraid of, singing.
I’d like to say that my life is different. That fear is completely gone. But in forty days my fear was gone and replaced with a new kind of fear, an awe of life in all its fullness. A fear of shrinking back and missing out on all the incredible world around us has put on offer.
I’m paddling out into the deep blue water.
How do you get over fear?